Nothing else matters...nothing.

I had a major pity party tonight thinking about how Mike and I are just weeks away from having our 10th wedding anniversary, (almost 20 total!) and was just slightly venting about how there are so many people counting on us and needing us this summer that we won't probably be able to celebrate it in some sort of fine style.

Then it is like a brick hit me in the face. I just read about a mother losing her sweet baby that has been fighting her whole life to live.

Nothing else matters in life MORE than your health, your children's health..your family's health. An anniversary can wait, can be postponed...life is too short. I am so incredibly lucky for the health of my kids. My daughter is still such a miracle to me. I love my kids so incredibly much. I have no words to fully explain that love..only other mom's can relate to that feeling. I hated putting my baby girl to bed because she is just the most AMAZING little girl you would ever meet. She has touched so many people that she has been around. (that might sound braggy, but it is true!) she is just a special gift, and I have never forgot what we went through to get to this point we are today. This little girl is one of the most prettiest little things I have ever seen. She is spunky, she is a little comedian, she is a dream come true. Life without my Kate would just be empty. Oh, that may sound over dramatic, but it is true. I still thank Jesus all of the time for getting us through what we had to go though...

I might get cocky from time to time and try to go "back" to that ugly person that I was once before where maybe I thought materialistic things mattered in life..but she always, always brings me back.

And then there is Matthew. He lights up the room when he walks into it. He has the most beautiful eyes you would ever see. He is such a smart, intriguing little boy. His penmenship is just incredible, and he is such a soft hearted little guy. My eyes well up with tears thinking about how much I love him and how much I prayed and prayed to have a little boy, and to have my prayers answered is just incredible. He has such sweet, genuine feelings, and he feels. He sees things that we don't think about, or talk openly about. He is very in tune with his feelings and thoughts, and dang it if that doesn't make me proud of him. I beam with love at just the thought of him. If you are tearing up over a movie, he will too..he just feels so much with his heart, and I love that little guy.

Nothing else in life matters. The dust can pile up, the dust bunnies can multiply. I have my kids to tuck in every night, and dammit if that doesn't make me lucky.