Today..

We heard from Katelynn's cardiologists office. They want to see her next month for her BIG one year old heart appointment. I have been anticipating the call/letter coming in the mail. Mike and I just looked at each other as soon as I got off the phone, and it is just nerves. I am sure the appointment will be great, and we will get great news, it is just something that you will ALWAYS think about, and wonder if now the other shoe is going to drop. I have to take her in for an EKG before the appointment. That was a first for me. Normally they just do vitals on all of her extremities, then do a detailed echo. I guess since she is older now, they want to look at what the EKG offers. It all makes me nervous as all get out. Will we ever get used to these appointments? When she is old enough to understand everything, I worry that she will hold a grudge against us somehow. I can't explain that really. I just don't want her to feel like she is different-in a bad way.

Prior to finding out we needed to call up to the cardiologists today, I was driving home from school, and Kate was on my mind. She is so incredible. My life is so forever changed. I can't imagine my life without my love bug. I just swell with love for her. She is just this perfect little girl, and has the most amazing personality. She is in love with her brother, and he is with her. They were playing on the floor the other night, and he was showing her how the glo-worm worked, and the next time I looked over at them, Matthew had his head in her lap, and she was putting her arms around him. Talk about gushing, and being overly overwhelmed seeing your children show love for each other like that. I got a picture. I will post it in a few. I was like, STAY THERE! lol!

I feel sorry for people that choose to not have children. I can see why they wouldn't want the responsibility, and that they prefer time alone with their partners..but to experience the love for your children is just incredible!