So we went and saw..

The lactation consultant again today. Sigh. Things are just so hard getting her to just only bfeed, and not be so dependant on her bottles. We tried out a few different positions, and she hated them all! It is so hard to not get so frustrated myself with it all, but I am really committed to getting it all figured out. This is do or die time as everything I have been told is that your milk production is set at about 6-8 weeks. If she isn't going to get on the boob and really go for it, my milk supply is going to really suffer. I even got a new shield to see if that would help, but she just gets so mad. The LC is also convinced that she has tracheal malacia. She said it should resolve itself, but that her ped needs to check her out..and he will, since we go see him Wednesday.
We weighed her before we bf, and then after. She lost weight after her feed, and that was after we took her wet diaper into consideration. So she is working too hard and getting too worked up and she isn't gaining the calories. Ugh.

So before this appointment, I was trying to be proactive, and went and picked up a hospital grade pump last Friday, and it is working a bit better, but it takes longer to pump than my other one. With my pump, I get instant milk really fast, but the quantity isn't as much as I can get with the hospital pump, with taking about 10 minutes longer. So I have to weigh out which is better. I have the hospital pump for a month, and then after that, I will have to pay a monthly rate for it, so I am going to see where we are after 30 days.

I do have to say I am a pretty dang good multi tasker and have mastered pumping in the car really good! Of course not with me driving, just in the passenger seat. I get it done pretty fast, and discrete too..the drag is packing it up everywhere I go.

So other than that..we go see her ped Wednesday for her first shots. Ouch! I am not looking forward to her getting them, but she needs them so we will. Thursday I have my 6 week pp check up with my ob. I am going to get the dreaded talk on birth control and I am going to tell her that abstinence is the latest trend in this house! LOL! Mike is going to get a vasectomy, and I am sad about it. I want another baby, even though I said I wouldn't. I just loved having her in my belly so much, and I miss it. I know I can't have a baby based on that, lol..but I am just hormonal I suppose. I know we can't have another. It would be 3 years before we could even try again with school and all, and I am not getting younger! I have been thinking about what it would take to be a nicu nurse, so maybe that is my calling after all of this. I want to give all of those babies the same care she had, and maybe that will be fulfilling to me.