I spent the early afternoon with Kate today. I got to be part of her entourage as we headed back to the nicu. They were right when they said that you will feel panic again going back there, even though it is a good thing. In the PICU you are in a private stall if that makes sense..it is a room with a large sliding glass door, and there is a daybed in the back if you need to take a rest..
In the NICU, you are sandwiched in, baby after baby, after baby. No room for a few people to stand there..just really tight space. I felt claustrophobic going back there today, even though it was a good thing that she had graduated back there.
She is no longer in a nicu bed. I am so happy about that. She is in a regular bassinet that all babies are given in the labor and delivery area. This is her last transition bed until she will go home.
She is doing great..we got to breast feed a few times today, and she is a champ. It doesn't hurt at all..(at least for now) and she is taking really nice gulps, and resting in between. The nurse was proud of her.
She has a heart murmur. I guess I didn't expect she would after having surgery. I have to talk to the cardiologists to see what they think about it and what we are supposed to do.
One of her legs is very swollen..the one that had her groin line in it. They say it should go down soon since the fluid likes to hang out while the line is there, and it should absorb into the rest of the body soon. They want to do an ultrasound on it just to see for sure.
So..even though she is doing great, I felt as though going back to the nicu brought me news I wasn't expecting, or didn't want to hear. In the picu, they are always telling us how GREAT she is..and instantly going into the nicu, I felt like she was being picked on for this, this and this..I know. I think too much about things, and it is good that on arrival that they looked her over that well, it just is frustrating.
Mike is about to head over there for his visit, and then when he gets back this evening, I am going to go over for mine. I didn't like last night not getting the last visit of the night like he did..and I feel more at ease knowing when I leave, I will see her very soon.
No word on when we get to come home. At first today they made it sound like as long as she is eating and gaining...and her jaundice was gone, they would have an idea, but then I heard a dr say she should be eating better than what she is, and I felt sad that he said that when everyone else said she was eating great.
Hopefully we will get some news soon! I know it is only Monday though..and odds of us coming home so soon in the week are so slim.
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