I went and had my screening mammogram 2 weeks ago, on Friday. I went in the following Monday morning to read the report, and expected to see it read normal. I opened up my chart, and stared at the photos, and was like, huh? There is spot on it. Hmmmm. The imaging center phoned me, told me they needed me to come back. I emailed my dr, and asked him to interpret the mammo for me. He said it's probably nothing to worry about, but that the ultrasound is protocol to be sure it isn't anything serious. I know the spot they are talking about, as I feel it just sitting here. It is right where my underwire lays. It hurts at times, more so when it is that time of the month. My ob told me last year it was just fibrous.
So I went back and had my ultrasound. It hurt. A lot. More than getting a mammo. I got my results today. They say "A 1.1 cm mass at 730 o'clock. Probably benign." recommend followup in 6 months.
What does "Probably benign" mean?? I watched my mom's tumor triple in size in 2 months.
Lucky for me I have dr's I work with who can talk to me about this, and not charge me. They all tell me I need a biospy. So, I am seeing my personal PCP that I pay, on Friday. We need a face to face to talk about this and my concerns. Mom almost could have died! She had/has invasive interductal carcinoma. Stage 3. I refuse to allow 6 months to go by on a just wait and see. I am prepared to have my breast look different, but I feel it is for a good cause. I know that this sounds insane..but when you have your life in your hands, and you have every reason to check it, wouldn't you? How can I safely allow my life to be in the hands of someone who says it is "Probably Benign" and to come back in 6 months? Thank goodness I have full access to my chart. I have to believe there is a reason I work and do what I do.
For 2 weeks, I can't shake these thoughts out of my head. I am sure I am fine..but you know, I want to be told I am 100% fine. Everyone deserves that.
3 comments:
Oh Heather! I'm sorry you have to deal with that!!! Now I understand your FB post. Ugh!!! You are right to get it checked - peace of mind is everything! Big hugs to you!!!!!!!
Thanks Linny! I have sinced done a lot of researching, and I will ask for a repeat ultrasound. The medical advice I have been getting says that at the size it is, the biopsy probably won't pull out cancer, and it would be labeled as inconclusive. I would be even more confused at that point. So I am going to ask for a repeat u/s in 3 months. If there is any sign of growth on it, it means it most likely could be CA, and well..an agressive one. No growth, most likely absolutely nothing to worry. My odds right now are less than 2% that it is malignant. Good odds..I want better though, ya know?
That is ridiculous, especially with your moms history. They should have you come in much sooner to see if there is any growth.
So glad you have knowledgeable people to talk with. Yeesh!
Everything crossed its just a big fat nothing!
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