It was meant to be that Maddie survived through Christmas.
It was meant to be that Maddie was here during my knee injury.
It was meant to be that Maddie was here for her 10th Birthday. We needed to celebrate her just one more year.
It was meant to be that Maddie was here to get through my Mom's cancer treatment. Both the chemo and the radiation. She rallied on, and was my teddy bear to hug on with the going got tough. She soaked up a lot of tears, and let me pet away. Just that simple motion of petting her could take anyone's tension away.
So that is why on the last day of my Mom's radiation, Mad's has taken a turn for the worse. She is tired. She is saying it is time Momma. Time to let me go. I hurt too bad now.
The irony of what a pet can do. She has done so many jobs for me. So many times she has been there for me, to help me get through life. Now it is time for her to go.
I called her vet tonight, and we are going to bring her in on Friday. Of course I can cancel if she changes, but as of now, she is not doing well.
I had to carry her to the sofa tonight. She didn't meet me at the door as usual. Instead, she stayed on the sofa, too tired to come to me. She hurts. The tumor is pretty hard, and it is hot all of the time. I gotta do this for her, and I dont wanna. But I have to. I am going to miss her!!!
1 comment:
You are a good momma and she has had a great life with you. Its a hard decision to make and an even harder one to go through with but as much as we love them we have to let go.
Hugs!
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