Is it annoying that I am a thinker? It dawned on me today that there are people out there that are desensitized when it comes to animals. I may come off as an annoying freak to them being so emotional and compassionate about my pets. I heard someone say not long ago that their dog wasn't doing too well, and well, being that she was raised on a farm, when it was time to go, it was time to go. They didn't think twice about putting an animal down, and they certainly didn't cry over it.
Huh. Well, I guess we are all different. Not bad, but different. I can see how people are brought up differently.
It always strikes me as I write in the moment. As I am feeling it, I come straight here to throw it all up into a blog post. When I come back the next day, I kinda cringe that I was so open and emotional about things, and maybe people might not want to read that.
But then I remembered...hey..it's my blog, it is my therapy. People don't have to read it if they think it is annoying. Gawd knows I read blogs, and some posts make me want to poke my eyes out with a stick, so I just scroll down. Doesn't mean I don't like the writer, just means I am not in the mood for it. I am having a kinda angry night here. yah...I think I need the meds again. But it really does feel good to get it out in the moment. Half the time I can't even talk to Mike without freaking crying like a lunatic, or I don't want to get all emotional again about things, so I tell him I made a good blog post, and he reads. He gets it, and is understading. He told me last night that he is going to let me be the one that is all emotional, and let it be my time since he didn't feel like crying anymore. Then he cried, lol..but I get it. He is a good man, and I don't deserve him. I mean..please, let me have him..lol! But I don't deserve him.
Holy ramble, batman.
1 comment:
I don't get how people don't cry when they put an animal to sleep....are they made of stone???
Your post made me cry too, H. I am so sorry. What a kind, gentle and amazing soul M has. You guys both had each other for a reason.
I love you and let it out....that's what blogs are for, you're right! Don't ever feel bad.
I feel that too sometimes when I go back and read what I wrote like during the time Will was coaching. Not nice. But, it's MY blog! ;) If you don't like it, get your own!! ;)
Much love, hugs and prayers during this time.....give M a hug from me, too...and you one, too!
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