It only took seven months...

But now, only now, do I have a baby that wants to breastfeed exclusively. I was sooo out of my mind recently over my pumping that I have been doing since day one. I was ready to pack up the pump and just throw in the towel and say forget it! I can't pump anymore! It has consumed my life for so long..having to always watch the clock, make sure I take the pump with me..did I pump enough today, or should I have snuck in a couple more sessions? Yikes! My milk supply went way down recently. I went from coming home from school and being able to pump one and a half bottles for her, to only one bottle, to oops, almost a bottle. I was freaking out. I would pump for an hour straight trying to get the supply back up, and I was getting nothing more. I kept trying to put her to breast more, and she was fighting me so bad. It was awful. It bugged me so much that I just convinced myself it was coming to an end.

Till last week..I would say the middle of the week. Something changed. It was the weirdest thing. I did my normal nursing in the morning, then went to try mid-morning like I always do, but was ready for her to fight me, and she didn't! She took right to it, and then again later, and then later again. I only pumped a couple of times that day just for good measure..all of the while thinking this was a fluke. The next day went the exact same way, then the next, and throughout the whole weekend she has wanted to nurse. She had only one bottle yesterday, and then one again today. I can't tell you how much I am loving this! I am in heaven not having to pump anymore, and that supply is totally back up to where it was before. Awesome! I didn't even pump today at all. I just can't believe it.

Mike and I have come to the conclusion that it must have just been the way I decided to just let it go. Maybe being just whatever happens, happens, made it easier for her to want to nurse? Maybe she was feeling anxiety from me, and it made her too uneasy to nurse? I don't know for sure. I also have been feeding her solids after nursing, so maybe that is another reason she is more relaxed about it..knowing she is going to get real food, and won't still be hungry, as I feel sometimes she doesn't get full after a session.

Either way, it is a great thing, and I want to be able to continue on as long as we can make this ride out. It has been awesome for me to be able to nurse her, and we have a grand time together.

Thanks for hanging in there..I know that was a long one.