Well, I can breathe!

What a long day this was. I got some really good news today from the specialist. He said that everything he saw on the echo looks like any normal ultrasound that he has ever seen. That was such a relief. I asked him if he would say she is normal, he said that he can't guarantee anything in life, but that if he were to put my ultrasound on a scale of 1-10, 10 being something that needs surgery and has major concern over, he would give me a 1. He said that the ultrasounds that were done previous in his opinion were positional issues...I asked about why then did the blood look like it was flowing back? He said he didn't understand that, and that she is measuring just absolutely perfect. So... as you all can imagine, I just cried and cried and cried. Happy tears, relieved tears, just a bundle of stress unraveling all at once. The genetic counselor talked to me before the echo and went over the Down's questions I had..I didn't even have to ask her, she just went right into it. She said that my quad marker I had done had come back with excellent results, that the ultrasounds I had done previously never brought up any markers for Down's and that I should have minimal concern for that. I know that the only true way of knowing is by having an amnio, but I really was concerned since everything I had read said that heart problems and Down's do sometimes come hand in hand..so that also made me feel better.
She was just a wonderful person to talk to. She talked in a calm, relaxing tone..she looked at me with just a caring manner..I talked to her about all of the stuff that has happened this year and when she asked how I have been coping with things, I started to cry..my mother in law said, "Yeah, that has been the only way she can handle things lately"..she needs another outlet. LOL.
I do know that I will need to talk to a professional again. I know that there may need to be some medication at some point..I was a wreck after Matthew was born, so I cannot allow that to happen again.
I do have to go back in 4 weeks again to the specialist before he will release me completely back to my regular dr. He wants to make sure that Katelynn is growing the way she is supposed to, and to make sure that her heart is still looking a ok. After that appointment, he said that by then, she will be 30 weeks and everything should look the way it is supposed to. He stressed again that this was a completely normal looking ultrasound and held my hand. It made me feel bad for people that have been in that same chair and were being told bad news. He said that he has to tell alot of mom's unfortunate news almost everyday, and that it felt good to be able to talk to me with a smile on his face.
Sigh!
Hopefully that is the end of my Momma Drama for a loooooong time! LOL! I just am so ready to enjoy this last 13 weeks or so of this pregnancy. It feels good to be able to look forward to the fun stuff again, instead of wondering what I was going to be told, what the treatment was going to be, if she was going to thrive..etc.
I just feel so weird now. I have this sickly feeling..I think it was just a resistance that I had built up with adrenaline and stress, and my body is letting go of it now, and it is just leaving me with this exhausted feeling. I will certainly sleep well tonight!