Baby stuff!

So I got to have my 19 week appointment today. It was great. My Dr wasn't rushed. Not like she has been before, but she really wanted to ask me how things were going today and it made me feel good. I have been having issues with my hands falling asleep while I am sleeping at night and she recommended some carpel tunnel wrist braces. I will see what I can find and hopefully I can get some. One of my g-friends suggested a certain kind that look comfy so I may go for those. I also told her my varicose veins are itching me like a mad woman! LOL! She said that she hasn't heard of that being a common complaint, but that it could be just a skin stretching issue..so we will see.

I ended up doing the quad marker today. I was over the fence whether I should or not. She told me I didn't have to, and I know I didn't have to..but I did do it. And now I am sitting here wondering why I did. I am such a freaking nutjob! If I don't hear from her by next week, all is fine..I am sure I have enough to keep me busy till then to help the time go by. I don't remember doubting myself so much with all of the other blood tests I had to get Matthew. Maybe I was naive then. Maybe it is because I am older a little bit now that has me wondering. But I am telling myself to stay cool even if she does call since they have such high false positives. She warned me that they did and that I shouldn't stress..she was like, "You really do not have to have this test, I just offer it, and it is up to you." so I bit the bullet.

I find out in 2 weeks whether I am having a little boy or a girl. I am not going to lie. I would LOVE to have a little girl. I really would. Am I going to cry if it is a boy? No, because I remember how sweet, and precious my little Matthew was when he was a baby. Baby boys are amazing. If you have only had a girl, you don't know what you are missing. The bond is incredible. I can make everything better that daddy can't. I know all of his favorite songs and can understand everything he says..I can just look at him and give him that look, and he smiles big. So yeah. I will be greatly blessed with whatever I am told we are having. Boys are so amazing. And I get to say that because that is all I know..but it is true. Boys just love their mommies so much, and even though I come on here and rant and rant at how insane my 3 year old is, or how much trouble he got into today, when it is just him and I at night. We both know that there is a ton of love between us two that he doesn't have with anybody else.