The vet called to say that her ashes had returned, and Mike went and got her today. I was really touched on how they packaged her. Her ashes are in a very beautiful tin. The top has been glued shut, (thank you)..I have been worried what would happen if the kids tried opening the box. They sent us a condolence card, along with a certification that she was cremated alone, and that it was done in dignity. It was hard to read the card, and see the date when it was done, knowing what day she had passed. I get weirded out at this part of death, but it is comforting to know she is here again.
I won't make some insane shrine of her, but I will keep her in a special spot.
It is super hard walking through the house, and you get so used to seeing the babies laying on sofas, or hearing their nails click on the hardwood floors behind you. Today I caught a glimpse of Riley on the sofa as I walked by, and almost said hey, Maddie-girl! Your mind tricks you in so many ways.
Mike has texted twice now to put the dogs away (as he is getting close to the house) and both times has followed up with an oops text. I do miss my doggie...so much! I have missed her more the last couple of days than at the beginning. I was so busy with plans to help take my mind off things last weekend that it is very much reality this week. I promise I will get better, and not talk so much about her..I just really loved that girl. I don't know that I can love an animal like that again..it would be too hard to get close. She was a special one.
2 comments:
I'm so sorry H. This so made me cry. I hope you heal and each day gets better....even though I know better. She definitely was a special soul.
That sounds really nice how they sent it to you....much much love!
Heather, you don't need to talk less about her. She was a part of you and you honor her memory each time you think of her.
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