New post..

In a few days. A few reasons for that.

1. I haven't been feeling well enough to use the computer that much. GASP! I have been getting little colds one after another, and they knock me down for a day, and then I am playing catch up on things around the house for a few days afterwards.

2. I haven't had anything really exciting to post about.

3. I hate our internet connection with a passion. Mike swears it has nothing to do with his downloading he does on his computer, but I don't believe it. It takes sometimes 10 minutes or so to get my computer where I want it, and then the pages load so slowly that I get frustrated and close out.

4. I am feeling the after Christmas blues. I hate all of that buildup for it to all be over with so fast. In the blink of an eye it is gone. Boo. Plus, I went on my school's website today to look when my term starts again, and it is starting a week earlier than I had last saw on there, and I am really confused on how I screwed that up. I swore it was February 2nd, but it is a week earlier. I guess my head was in the clouds. So..that means even less time I have left here alone with my sweetie. My instructor is supposed to call me tomorrow to discuss class schedule, so we will see how long in the day I am going to be away from her. I hate getting the blues.

Side note..we talked to Katelynn's cardiologist, and he said that she didn't need to come up to the hospital for the ENT if her symptoms had subsided. I said she wasn't having any feeding issues, and her voice was completely back, so we canceled it. Two days later, she chokes on her bottle daddy is giving to her, and she has the weird breathing going on. &%$%#^$! So I don't know what to do now. I am thinking she is just dealing with her cold and has phlem issues, but still. No symptoms at all when there is an appt in place, and then when we cancel, things start happening again. She will see her cardiologist in a month, so he may recommend she does need to be seen by the ENT afterall. It just sucks. I am in constant fear all of the time on her condition..what is going to happen, is she going to have to have another surgery, did the coarctation return? I have this always running through my mind and I want it over. I just want a clean bill of health forever and ever for her. I hate that we have to go see the heart dr for her because with that, all of the anxiety builds just like when I was pregnant with her. The only real reason I do like going to the heart dr is because they look at her heart and I can hopefully get confirmation that she is still okay.

Holy ramble!