TGIF!!

I mean that too..I am so ready for the weekend. Mike is getting Matthew for me now while he is on his break and then he will be home in just a few hours from now for good. I have been super lonely this week without him home, and it just helps knowing I have a back up when I need one.

Matthew was so perfect last night. He did such a good job listening and playing great. I am sure he is ready for the weekend too. I hope we can try to go do something fun!

Mike finally agreed on my taking next term off as well, and will be faxing over my doctors note this evening. He said that he had thought it was a done deal when I talked about it earlier in the week and I told him that I had been afraid to bring it up again! LOL! Either way, it is going to work, and I don't go back to school until the first of February! Can you believe it??

My ups and downs with breastfeeding are consuming my mind. I want to get this all figured out, but it is sooo hard! I want to just be able to feed on demand, but when I have to feed her every 2 hours no matter what, and my breasts are sooo sore, it is so hard. I am ready to throw in the towel at times, but I won't. I am very committed to making this work. I got alot further with Matthew, so I know I can do it. I think it has just been harder since she essentially had to learn how to really bf once we got released out of the hospital, and with Matthew, he was breastfeeding within an hour of being born. Sure I was able to bf a few times while in the hospital, but when you got a bottle going in your mouth 24/7, it gets hard. I am very blessed though..it could be harder. She could have come home on a feeding tube like so many of her roomates in the nicu. Alot of the moms had to go through alot of additional training and I am sure they are really having a hard time. We will get it figured out. I just know we will.