About how I feel like I am in the twilight zone. I left for the hospital on the 15th of September, and well..here it is a whole month later and I feel like I missed a whole season! I feel like I almost had amnesia or something.
Last weekend when we went out, there were Christmas decorations everywhere, the leaves were all changed..and alot were on the ground. Actually, too many were on the ground. I just feel shell shocked. I can't really explain it. I don't leave the house all week long, and when I emerge outside on the weekends, it is really freaky. I don't even go and get Matthew anymore from daycare. Mike does it for me and I just feel even strange driving my car.
When you are up in the hospital, it is like it's own world there, and it should have its own zip code. The campus is HUGE! That is alot for this Oregon girl to handle. I am used to huge being well..not that huge. LOL! So when we left, and came back home, it was like I was being transported to my new cocoon, and when I go outside I am continuously amazed at how things have changed.
This has got to change though. Starting next week, I want to get out of the house more. Whether it is to visit people, or mall walk, I NEED to get out of here to start to establish a routine of some sorts. I want to have a awesome routine down before heading back to school so that I am able to leave the house at the drop of a dime like I used to with Matthew.
Today is a pretty day outside..I wish we could go out, but there is too much to do around here, and she is pretty content right now in her swing. For once I didn't feel like the lowest setting on it was moving too fast, and she seems to really enjoy it for the moment.
She is such a sweetie!
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