On a positive note...

Matthew has earned an A+ at his new daycare. I went to pick him up this evening and Ron gushed at how well he has been doing, and how well behaved he is. That made me feel really good.
It has been pretty good in the evenings here too. Normally when he starts a new daycare he can be a monster at home for the first 2 weeks, but he has been really well behaved.
I don't know if it is because I have been so emotional around him and he knows that something is up, or if he just feels really comfortable at his new place there. He fits so well in there with the other kids. It is very rewarding to go pick him up and see him in the middle of all of them engaging in what they are doing. I love him so much.

I did end up sending out the invites today for the shower. I figure it is good to have something good to look forward to, and it will be nice to have the support of my friends here all together before we go in to have the baby. I am really just anxious to know what to plan out for the next 4 weeks of my life. It is so hard to know if I need to be making arrangements for Matthew, or for hotels..or just all of that stuff. 4 weeks away is just going to happen so incredibly fast and I feel so out of control on not knowing what is going to happen next.

I do know and realize that a very large percentage of people have no idea that their baby has a condition until after the birth and then that is when their lives change, and I have the advantage here..but it is so hard when you have a little guy at home that you just love so much that you don't want to see effected by mommy being gone for a couple of weeks (if that even ends up being the case.)

I gotta get my rear in gear and get to studying again. I just needed a break I suppose. 2 finals tomorrow, then 2 more to go on Monday. I can do it, I can do it!