This is a whiny post..

You have been warned..so if you aren't in the mood for a read about a whine or several rants..this may not be the post for you. HA!

I have the worst luck with daycare for my son. Ever since I have had him, I have not been happy with either the place he is going, or the price going up, or the people that look so great in person that end up either being jerkwads, or just inconsistent with the actual care they are providing.

My daycare lady has been out of commission since really last Wednesday. I can understand when things come up as family emergencies and whatnot..but she also has to understand I have to put my son as my #1 priority too, and he isn't just a sack of potatoes that I can sling from person to person to have him be watched. He is a person. He has feelings..he needs to be nurtured, loved, and know that he is in a place where he is welcome, and cared for, and safe. I look at my son with so much admiration that he is growing up to be this incredible little man. I don't want to eff with it by constantly interrupting his upbringing and moving him from place to place.

My daycare lady loves to text. So much, that she blows up my phone all damn day long sending me into pure insanity where I want to throw my phone into the toilet and flush it for hopes I don't see it again.

Her dad came down with an illness so that she needed to be with him. Totally fine. I have family members that are available for short notice care, but it isn't ever 10-5 care, it is for an hour here or there..so she texts me that she will be able to start watching him today..(Monday) and that everything will be back on track. 5 minutes later, I am told she can't watch him afterall. 5 minutes later, I am told she can watch him. I am so fed up with this silly little game now that I call her and ask her to please just forget about Monday, and I will get it covered. Obviously she needs time with her family and she can't figure out what she wants to really do.

Rule #1. Be honest with me. Don't skirt around what is on your mind. Tell me point blankly what you want to do and I will cope. I only flip out when people lie to me and beat around the bush.

She then texts me all weekend long..I won't bore you with the messages..but it boiled down to her not being able to take him all week long. (this week) This sent me to the edge of the cliff looking down. I asked her if she really would just need this week off, or if I was looking at the prospect of having to find him new permanent care. (You all will probably remember I went through a ton of shit to get a scholarship, and part of the perk of this was to assist me with daycare.) Yeah..without him going to a certified caregiver, the perk is lost. She told me that she was not going to stop watching him all together (and also my nephew) and that I would not need to worry past this week.

Fast forward to today. I had my mom watch Matthew..and she agreed to take him all of this week..a really nice gesture since she doesn't really watch him for more than 3 hours at a time. I am picking Matthew up this evening and what do you know..I get a text from her..this time she is saying, "I will no longer be able to watch Matthew, please get another care provider."

Wow. what has the world come to when your daycare lady fires you as a client via text?

I texted her back, "So you are telling me this over text? This is HUGE! You obviously lack tactfullness."

Not soon after she textes me that she will call me later. Well so she called during dinner and I let it go to voice mail. She has the nerve to say, I just can't do it anymore..blah, blah blah..and please drop by last months pay to my husband asap.

I had already planned on paying her the 30th. We have a contract that says I pay the 30th of the month for the month she just watched him. I texted her back, "I will pay you the 30th, as previously stated."
I am so over this. Soooo over finding care for my son. I want someone to please just be responsible and take initiative for wanting to actually care for kids. When a parent comes to you, and you agree to watch their child..it means that they are depending their lives on you! So now I have to start all over again. I have to worry where my son is going..what kind of effects this will have on him, will he cope okay?
And shit! I have 3 effing weeks left of school! Anything can happen afterwards..just not now. I can't deal with anymore shit thrown at me during these last few weeks. I have had it!

Told you it was a whiny post.