No More Binky!

Hip Hip Hooray!
It is soo nice to be rid of it, but ya know...bittersweet at the same time. It means that he is no longer a baby. **cry** He did it all on his own too..so what a relief! He didn't ask for it Sunday night, but I put it in bed with him anyways, and when I went to check on him 5 minutes later, it was still in bed, so up and away it went. The next couple of nights took him longer to fall asleep and wind down to, but he eventually nodded off, and fell asleep pretty good. Tonight, not another mention of it, so I gathered the rest of them up and away they are! Gosh I had a meltdown tonight. I had to watch this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HNLKXf6mQ6M
He is growing sooo much and changing so fast! I just wish I could rewind so many things and live so many things over and experience alot of the "firsts" with him again and again. Everyone tells you that you are going to fall in love with your child, but they don't tell you how much, and how incredible it is. Nobody can ever ever describe it. I just want to stop time, hold him in my arms and never let go of him.
He is now at that age where he is so busy, and things happen so fast so he has no time for snuggles, no time for kisses. I was drawing with him on my lap tonight and was trying to kiss the back of his head and his little spot on the back of his neck, and he just says "No momma"...am I now that overbearing mother that is the smothering type? Did I do something that makes him not want my affection? I just want him to look me in the eyes so I can tell him how much I love him, but he is always so dang busy.
**sigh**